Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Year in Review, Cont'd, or So, Did I Learn Anything?

If I had to sum up this past year, I’d have to say that I feel like I’ve come to accept my “new” life. It’s a very tenuous treaty at this point, because I’m sure that I’m not done erupting and fuming about it, but I am grounded in the realization that I will probably never know life without pain, again. Though I have learned to accept my enemy, I'm not sure that I've learned, yet, to embrace it. I don't know if that will ever happen, but certainly it could not have happened in only a year. That is something that takes a lifetime to practice. What I do know is that acceptance is a big key to finding peace, true inner peace. A year ago, I didn't think I could do even that.

Here’s the rest of my past year in review:

THE Appointment, this month was pretty lean, with only a few posts as I tried to adjust to a new treatment regimen, now that I finally got insurance and was able to see a pain management specialist. Hmm. Doesn’t seem like it was that long ago.

When Will I Learn?, talked about how my dreams seem to correlate strongly with my real life nightmare, Migraines. This was also a pretty lean month. Still trying to get used to the meds. As I remember, I was having a god-awful time of trying to just stay awake, until the doc prescribed a med to counteract the sedating side effects of the meds and I was dealing with incredible nausea. I lost about 10 lbs. purely from worshipping the porcelain god. It's effective, but not the healthiest way to lose weight.

Respecting Yourself--Another Step Toward Acceptance, back to embracing the enemy again, and learning to accept even the things we wish we could change about ourselves in order to respect our own selves.

Migraneurs Bill of Rights, This is just plain important for us to remember and to carry with us. We deserve to be treated with dignity by ourselves and others. This is empowering.
A Visit From the Migraine Fairy, How and when to go to the ER for help; how to make it a better experience than you’ve had in the past.

So, how'd I do? Am I too "last season" now? Should I hang the hat on the rack? or Is there something that you would've liked to have seen me post about, that I didn't? What do you think about my blog? Do you have any ideas on how I can improve it? Do you have a blog, relevant to chronic pain or migraines that you'd like me to link to, that is not already in my links list? If so, please, post your comments or ideas and let me know.

Finally, I just want to thank everyone who's read my blog this past year. You've gotten me through another year of hell.


At 7:54 PM, Blogger Leann said...

Hi Jessica,

I'm not sure how you found my blog, but thank you so much for stopping by and giving me your two cents worth.

I have taken part of your advice, in that I am going out with a very open and gregarious friend who does not meet a stranger. I am quiet by nature and it takes someone like that to bring me out of my shell.

As for asking a guy to dance, well, I have done that however, I am not real comfortable with it. The fear of rejection thing :-)

You sound like a very intelligent and common sense kinda gal. I enjoyed reading of the "sims" life. Boy what I wouldn't change about mine! Some days. I know I would not be who I am today were it not for the tragedies and triumphs I have survived.

Best of luck to you in your pain management. I can't begin to imagine what it is like to live with pain 24/7.

You have my prayers.

At 1:28 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey Jess,

I check out your sight every chance I get. Obviously we understand how it feels to deal with such a monster.

Guess I too have accepted the fact that I will have to deal with the monster for quite some time. Maybe forever, god I hope not.

You do have me on your list and I thank you.

See you on Rhonda's

Mrs. Migraine

At 2:21 PM, Anonymous ErinM said...

Hey there!
Thanks for stopping by my blog. I hope you're doing well. My this year bring you less pain than last. I'll make it a point to check in with you more often.

Best wishes,

At 5:56 PM, Blogger Jessica said...

Thanks, y'all. Leann, I hope I didn't hurt your feelings, because that wasn't my intention. You never know how things will come across on the written page, vs. when you say it in person. :/ But, hey, you go girlfriend! I have a feeling that pretty soon, your little black book is going to be filled with all kinds of hot new names. :) Best wishes. And, yeah, for us quiet folks, bringing along the bouncy-bubbly friend is the only way to fly. lol Good luck, Chica! Though, with a personality like yours, you won't need it. :)

Mrs. M. as always, thanks for the empathy. I know you know how I feel, because you're there in the trenches with me. Blah! Don't you wish we could have a vacation from all of this? I've been watching alot of Star Trek Next Gen lately and I sure wish I had a holodeck. I'd go in and never come back out again! lol

Thanks for your sweet thoughts, Erin. I hope so, too, but more than that, I hope that I can handle this for another year. :/


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