My Migraine Battle: On The Forefront

It's Not a Monty Python Sketch

Because if it was, it would be funny. Instead, it's my life. Ok, so still waiting to hear about when my surgery will be scheduled. Insurance hasn't yet approved it and they're making a stink about paying any of my bills, citing that I owe them some paperwork, which they have, twice now already. I'm going to have to deal with them and that pisses me off, because I've already done all of this, twice already! Grrr. I think this is called an anti-climax, but since my life is life and not a book, that doesn't really matter. The ggod thing is that I'm not in horrible pain right now. The sinus infection is gone, so are those headaches. So, the raise in meds worked. It makes me fall asleep at the oddest times, which would be funny if I was like 90 y/o! But, at 33, the joke tends to be lost on most.

I finished the writing class. I know y'all have just been dying to read my posts again, right? lol Alright, don't everyone jump up at once. So, now I'll be freed up to write a little more often, but still working on the novel.

I have something to say to, well, everyone. Now, don't look at me that way. I know I always have somethign to say, but if this was a Monty Python sketch, which it isn't, (just in case that wasn't obvious already), I'd be saying, "And now, for something completely different!"

I don't know about you, but growing up, I always learned about all these artists like Edgar Allan Poe, Andy Warhol, the Beatles, and about a million other dudes, (why is the list all male? Hmm. Interesting), that they were on drugs. E. A. Poe took cocaine while he wrote The Raven; or Andy Warhol was on LSD when he painted; or the Beatles were on (fill in the blank with drug of choice)___ while they performed or wrote their music. Bull shit!

It took me 3x as long as the other students to finish my damned assignments because of these freakin' drugs. Even just the patches slow me way down. I can feel it. It's aweful. There's no way that anyone not in thier right minds could write or do the brilliant things that artists do if they're on drugs. Now, that's not to say that you couldn't use your drug experience or the bizarre things you see while on drugs as subject matter of what you write, but I'm just saying that there's no way that you can write and make sense while you're under the influence to that extent. Even just a li'l influence, like what I've got now, is enough to slow me down so much that it's just like plodding through pea soup to get the bloody thing done, but that just makes me mad and more determined to do it.

Ok, rant over. So, what are you going to say next time you hear that? Bull shit. Very good. Thank you.

posted by Jessica @ 11:21 PM