My Migraine Battle: On The Forefront

Miscellaneous Hodge Podge

So I was feeling better than usual this morning and decided to listen to one of my fave rockers, Lenny Kravitz. I have a HUGE secret crush on him. He's so hot! Anyway, I'm listening to those awesome tunes on his Baptism CD (Isn't that cover yummy? lol). You know: Lady, Minister of Rock, Calling All Angels (what a beautiful melody). And, of course, I got a pl 7 mig. UNBELIEVABLE!! I waited until Christmas so that my daughter would know what to get me, for that CD. That and U2's How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb (I also have a crush on Bono, Whewee!). You know, it just sticks in my craw that these migs rob me of the simple joys in life. It's bad enough that they've robbed me of my career, my beautiful home, my finances, yada yada (the list is pretty long, so I won't bore you with it, this time). But, now, Lenny Kravitz' music gives me a mig?

What happened? I feel like such an old lady! I used to head-bang with the best of 'em. lol Now, I'm home on a Friday night, eating crackers cuz I couldn't eat all day from the nausea. I'm so booooorrrrrriiiiiiinnnnngggg!

Anyone else love Ellen? I think if my husband ever leaves me, I'm going to be a Lesbian. lol You gotta admit, she has a beautiful gf. And isn't it the thing to do these days? Jus love whoever you want? I wonder if I'll ever be "with it", "hip", "cool", "Phat" again? I doubt it. lol Anyway, she cracks me up like no one else can. And I just love her, she's so generous and thoughtful. So, I'm watching her every day, because that way I laugh. They say that laughter is the best medicine. Well, I don't know if it is or not, but at least for one hour every day, I can find something happy to laugh about, eh?

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Well, something kind of good happened. Remember how depressed I was that I was gaining weight, even though I basically eat almost nothing? I eat crackers, chicken wanton soup and sometimes a light dinner on my better days. Well, I've lost 10 lbs in the past two weeks. I can actually button the top button of my pants. Ha, ha!

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Oh, my poor baby. My daughter got her first broken heart today. Her li'l bf broke up with her. She said she cried a little at school but her friend made her feel better and by the time she got home she was totally fine with it. Since she went to a dance tonight, she just decided to go with the friend who cheered her up.

Why do we get so serious about that kind of stuff when we grow up? I wish I'd had that attitude when I divorced my first husband. "Oh, I got divorced today, so I cried a little, but my friend made me feel better and now we're going to go out and party and dance tonight." lol Would that things could stay so simple. lol Ahhh, those were the days.

I think it's so cool that she had a bf though. She's going to be 13 next month. I didn't have any bf's my whole school career. I was the only "person of color" in my whole, redneck, small town school. Ugh! The boys were so mean. They'd throw gum in my short afro (wore it au naturale at the time). They'd trip me as I was getting off the bus and throw rocks at me as I walked hom from school. They'd cough *nigger* cough into their hands during class, etc. etc. Needless to say, I wasn't interested in any of them and vv, so I never had a date in school. Well, not a real one. I went out with some boys from my church that I'd grown up with all my life. But, it felt more like I was going out with my brother. *sticks finger in mouth and gags*

Come to think of it, that's probably why I don't cry very often. Just learned not to let stuff hurt me. Unfortunately, migraine pain does hurt me and I guess I do take it kind of personally. I mean, it is messing up my whole life.

posted by Jessica @ 1:47 AM